when i can't sleep at all, almost.
my eyes feel heavy. but i have a lot weighing on my mind.
i remember not too long ago i had a slight idea of what my life was going to be like. i pictured a small house, simple dinners, little to maintain, and a lover to spend every night with.
and now that vision is gone.
i picture myself in a car, down a long interstate, crossing over borders into new territories.
loading myself onto an airplane with a new destination, not looking back at the one i am leaving.
staying for a moment, then picking up my bags to go somewhere new.
somewhere cold, somewhere hot. a beach, a forrest. rain and sun. snow and sleet. i want it all.
and it's blurry as to if i am alone or not.